So this is love?
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Just when i thought i handling everything quite well,someone have to remind me tml's is some date...
And as though its not bad enough,during break today my dear fren, Ash had to have such a conversation with me while we having breakfast...
Ash:Hey btw the post about you kissing dating goodbye is really meaningful sehz...Me:Hahah,thanks ay...Ash:But really sehz,your previous posts really emo mans~Me:*stares*...That's what i told you...emotional hangover...Thanks ay bro thanks for "reminding" me abt my previous posts.
Emotional hangover?Its just a better word for self pity that's all...
And THAT really triggered my emo shits just when i THOUGHT i was getting on pretty well...
And of all days, you guys chose 14 of nov which happens to be the eve of some siginificant date.
I so~ needed that.
Thanks...
What's with the emo-ness you guys might ask,so let me give you guys and my dear fren Ash some ideas why i wrote those posts...
As i wrote earlier in my earlier post and more of it in future posts to come,that love is based faithfulness and commitment and that true love don't just waver just when the romance feeling fade,it will be based on deeper siginificant rather than just the physical attraction that drawn the two mates together...As when lips met it does not mean that hearts are joined.
So let me start with it,
After being a dazz of flirts and loads of relationships that are not matched with committment,i am determined not to make the same mistakes and have a relationship that defines true love.
So,there i were with this gal that i thought i would have a perfect relationship with,she is sweet,well liked and best of all,she seems to be the one i want to spend my mornings knowing that i have yet another day to prove my love to her and cherish her presence,i was determined to show her what love really is...
Months past,the oupouring of emotions got deeper,gave out all of me unconditonally.
We had our great moments and snap!
She decided to move on and "
live life like it's meant to be"
Let me give a example so you guys will know why i emphasized so much on commitment,
Imagine my mate and i went for a cliff hike,and just when i halfway downcliff and with her clinging on my rope she shouted "i don't want to be tied down by it anymore and loosen herself from the rope and walk off.Obviously she don't want to be commited to this anymore, AND SO wad happen to me?
Obviously,i would fall to the ground due to gravity, break my bones, my skull and whatever you think is brittle. BUT in this instance,i broke my heart and alone in wilderness,clinging to a broken heart and with no one willing nor understand listening to my sorrow, since fellas down there are all
"bears' and "beasts" whom are too pre occupied with hunting down female counterparts to
"have some fun"(referring to friends who made me wonder why we were friends in the first place.)
Hence,all i can do is fall into the pit of self pity and pour out my emotions to myself...
And whenever i try to climb my way back up,there will be people to remind me of all of these shits and make me fall back into the emo pit!
Maybe had i watched more attentively to the Man Vs Wild shows and learn to climb the cliffs i wouldnt be the pathetic arse i am now...Oh well...
Now, you guys get the gist of it?And why commitment is vital?
I believe people who played the dating game as though they are recreational activities before would agree with me...
Its sorrow followed with regrets.
Hence,
Stay firm with the commitment made and
may true joy flows...
Back in class...
So instead of getting myself into the pits of self pity(
which i promised myself NOT to get into again),i used the energy trying to help my classmate Don to make sure his relationship with his gf is right...
And this is how it goes...
While doing ppt,
Me:Hey Don,how's you and ur gf coming along?Don:uh...not bad...Me:Not bad?good or bad?Are you serious about her?Are you matching intimacy with committment?Don:*Stunned by my words*... Ay fuck off kai! Don preach to me...Kai:haha busted Don. No no really, its impt that you know what is it to be in a right relationship without celebrating with the culture of self centredness and immorality.Only this will provide you and her with the perfect relationship so you wont live with regrets next time...Don: ..hahah..Seriously kai,don preach to me about this la! I dunno abt all these...Ended, lesson resumed...
So much so for being kind trying to guide him along...
Thanks ay Don...
See,this is classic example of the mindset that people have today on relationship,
Why must commitment be the the objective for a relationship?
Why cant we just go out have "
have some fun"?
The answer that you give is very vital in whether you falter in your relationship or find true joy which a relationship is supposed to be all about...
Instead of being selfless, it is selfish...Instead of giving, it is taking...Instead of being patient, it is impatient...Instead of looking out for the ongoing good of the other person, its focused on the needs of the moment...And this basically summed up what recreational dating that our society condones is all about...
Give it a little thought and reflect on your life...
Is that what you really yearn after for?
Now, shoo~
And btw Ash, you always say that you cant see her face clearly,
So being the ever nice guy that i am,
let me give you a better glimpse...
So,this is how she will look like if she were to appear in southpark. =)
Have a clearer pic Ash? haha
Till then.
